Past's Clarity

Previously, he never went out of his way. Never went the extra mile to make life more enjoyable. Never took risks. It was part of his defense system. It was subtle, almost passive. Never did he think of it, it just was. Life was so clear, his definition was clarity. Never did he worry about dramatic relationships, cause he didnt put himself up for them. Life was event-free, and excitement-free. Pain-free. Love-free. Life happened as linear as he planned it, and he wondered why he was so bored and lonely.

Finally, he digged his tunnel. He tried the news toys in the store. To his amazement, he accepted them as they accepted him. Life changed for him, but not quite enough. During the daylight he would work on bettering himself. During the night, he would retreat to his cowardice ways. He felt people could sense it, and he felt he needed a change, again. His mish mosh attitude and poor execution would have to be renewed.

Now, the boy is feeling incredible. He no longer makes time for himself. He loses himself in others. He feels love, and gives out all the love he once bottled up for himself. He is amazed at what can happen to a person, if they just step down the stairs. His life is going at full speed now, and hes feeling the burn. He knew this was the sacrifice he would have to make if he wanted to be truly happy. But he must learn the balance. A balance of personal dedication, and outgoing emotion. He must learn to quell his new found business to accommodate his sanity. And that, will be the next path he will take.